Pete Hendrickson wrote:
More, why do we not see articles helping to spread the liberating truth about the tax, so that this enormously important and effective activism goes viral and infects the body politic with a raging fever of liberty and real respect for the people's law? There is nothing that better instructs as to the true nature of the government actually established by the United States Constitution than gaining an accurate understanding of the limited federal tax authority.
Surely it is clear how much of an activating potential is represented by the prospect of a suddenly regaining control of 30-40% of your wealth, coupled with the revelation that previously the same portion of wealth had just been being snookered away by the corrupt exploitation of ignorance! Nonetheless, those articles are not being written.
WHAT AM I DOING WRONG??!!
I am at a loss. I really don't know what more I can do to light these candles.
I've been laboring ceaselessly for these nine long years-- even while in prison for two of them-- to strike the right spark and somehow my efforts are unavailing. So I ask you: What am I doing wrong?
For that matter, why have my calls to those of you already walking the walk to record and send your video and audio testimonials for posting here, and to spread them on the net yourself, fallen on deaf ears? Why have your victory submissions and uplifting and encouraging forum postings gotten so scanty?
What am I doing wrong?
Please. I really want to know.
Part of the problem, Pete, is that you do NOT really "want to know". Ironically, you're
not aware of the fact that you really do not want to know.
You're not really engaged in an effort to spread "liberating truth" or truth of any kind.
Pete, you have a condition that psychologists and psychiatrists call Narcissistic Personality Disorder, or NPD. This condition is characterized by an infantile, delusional belief that oneself is omnipotent. In your case, NPD exhibits itself in part with your delusional belief that you have discovered "the fascinating truth about taxation in America."
To those who know you personally, Peter, you appear to have an intense, persistent, irrational and really unnatural love for yourself.
In reality, you are not, however, in love with yourself. Instead, you have created a false image of yourself in your own mind. This creative process began when you were very young. You now have an elaborated, detailed, false image of who you are, and you are "in love" not with your
true self, but rather with that
false image.
You are not trying to "light candles," Pete.
You set personal goals for yourself for the purpose of gaining approval from others. You set your personal standards unreasonably high in order to falsely perceive yourself as being exceptional - exceptional not in the normal ways in which each of us is exceptional at one thing or another -- but rather exceptional to an unrealistic degree. In this regard, you are often unaware of your own motivation.
You have an impaired ability to adequately recognize or identify with the feelings and needs of other people. Your relationships with others around you are largely superficial. You maintain these relationships primarily to enhance your own self-esteem. In large part, you lack a genuine interest in the experiences of others. Your motivation in dealing with those around you is predominantly driven by a desire to enhance your own delusional feelings of superiority.
You have irrational feelings of entitlement. You firmly and perseverantly hold to a delusional, irrational belief that you are better than others in ways that are not reflective of the reality of your situation, and that you have achieved a measure of success that you have not really achieved.
You have in the past made excessive and largely dysfunctional attempts to attract and be the focus of the attention of other people. Your involvement in the anti-tax movement and your two federal prison terms are evidences -- and results -- of these dysfunctional behaviors.
As a person suffering from NPD, you tend to be an under-achiever in some of life's larger processes. Because of your pathological, false beliefs about yourself, you tend to not "try hard enough." Because you do not try hard enough at some of the things that really matter, you do not realize your full potential.
You are largely unaware of your own condition, Pete. You are, as some psychiatrists say, "ego syntonic." It would be difficult for you to overcome your disorder; the nature of the disorder prevents you from seeing your dysfunctional thought processes for what they are.
You have achieved some important successes, Pete. You and your spouse have raised a daughter and a son. You have maintained a long-lasting marriage. You are not without important and impressive abilities -- and potentials.
Your NPD, however, is probably a psychological anchor that has always held you back.
I am not a psychologist or psychiatrist, and someone qualified in those fields may well contradict me. I would tend to defer to the judgment of those so qualified if they disagreed with my assessments. But for whatever it is worth, this is my response to your question about what you are doing wrong.
See:
http://www.dsm5.org/ProposedRevisions/P ... spx?rid=19
EDIT: Much of my analysis is adapted from the proposed draft of DSM-5 (see the material at the linked page).
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